kyl3 (the band)

The air conditioner has broke and it is nice and warm in the office today.  Everyone else is rather hot and uncomfortable.  I am LOVING IT!!!!!

I had lunch with a friend today and after I had spoken a little about some of the frustrations at my new job she asked me to compare it to my old job.  It put things into perspective.  My previous job was still worse than my current job.  I think my current frustrations will ease out and fade away as I get a better handle on my environemnt and all of the little idiosyncrecis.

On a motorycle note; I have decided to sell my 2007 Kawasaki Ninja 250 seen in the photo above and I am searching for a moderatly priced cruiser like a Honda Shadow 650.  I totally love the Ninja but we want to do some really long rides this summer.  After the 6 hour ride we did on Sunday May 25th I have decided that the Ninja is not for cruising inspite of my desires.  If things have no funtionality in our lives it is time to let go.  It is sad, and I will be sad to see it go but if you hold on to everything it just weighs you down and controls you.

That is probably getting to philosophical  when we are talking about motorcycles but hey life tends to blur it all together because it is all connected to you.

On my websites note; I have updated the http://www.tarraguna.com website and got a mobile version http://www.tarraguna.com/mobile up and running.  Now I just need to throw in all of the content.  This is easier said than done. 

I just left work and it is Saturday.  I was the only one in the office for 8 hours.  I also could not find the light switch for the lights directly over my desk.  The switch has to be hidden.  I found all of the other light switches for every area except mine.  It was a wee bit dark at my desk.  Luckily I have lights at my desk.  But that just makes me feel like I am working late into the night with a little desk lamp trying not to interrupt anyone else sleeping in the house. 

 Meanwhile it is sunny and warm outside for the first time without meanacing rain clouds in over a week. 

I have enough work that I should come in on Sunday.  I have decided not to as I now have worked 57 hours this week and I know that I will be working 12 hours on Monday and probably 10 hours on Tuesday in order to make the deadline of the 20th. 

I just started this job two months ago.  I can’t help but notice that I am the only one here and probably have the most hours racked up.  This is not because I procrastinated on doing my work, but I have that rushed, stressed feeling like I did.  I recevied my data late and thus there I was all by myself on a Saturday. 

I feel quite overwhelmed and dumped on.  I hope things get better.  Otherwise I will have to change things.  But isn’t that always how things are? 

it is not a good feeling to have been working 10 hour days, be no where near finishing before the 20th, and also have already screwed something up. it feels like drowning all the while fighting off the urge to start sobbing; not the loud kind, just the one where tears just start streaming the face.

deep breaths, deep breaths, regain perspective…..

When you work more than 50 hours a week you really don’t feel like doing anything else.  My cell phone also went a little haywire so I had to do a hard reset and basically start over.  Luckily there are some great web sites and communities that use my phone like http://www.i607.org and http://www.i607blackjack.blogspot.com and http://www.blackjackusers.com.  I have had little time to add all my old blog entries and update my web sites so I feel really behind in my personal life.  

Yesterday was a huge deadline and very stressfull.  After everything was done I still felt the stress. It had not left when the deadline was met.  I hate when that happens.  I had to take a really hot shower for 20 minutes to destress.

I am not looking forward to working 50+ hours this week. I console myself with the fact that 50hours at my current employer is a breeze when compared to 40 at the previous. getting laid off was one of the best things to happen to me. a month off and a great new job.